columbus.

today i was on the top floor of a building
looking out a window
and noticing how outside looked unrealistic. it looked like a green screen, appeared as a movie.

i felt so large, like i was God looking out and down on everyone else, a safe form, the pouring rain.
as i wheeled closer to the window, the outside grew.
the amount of space my eyes can hold filled with the view from this window until it consumed my sight.
i did not like this.

i did not like being closer to everyone else, a world of which i do not exist and have no control over.


i wheeled back to where i had been before, once more enjoying the livid view outside. I could go outside, but why should i? I remained there for awhile and began to understand why God watches, and often remains absent.