ps

i also realized today something may be wrong with me.
once i realized we were in the wrong lane, i didn't say anything.
i didn't react to the oncoming traffic either.

i just sat and watched the headlights come my way.
my eyelids were consistently and meditatively still with boredom across my face.
my blood also stayed very still and my heart kept a steady beat.
in this instance, i felt more calm than i have in very long time.

how atrocious am i?