I don't have anyone to talk to.

Michael is moving in eight days. He and Jon both sold all of their equipment. I can feel it in the pit of my stomach, it's not going to work.

I have regained and lost everything so quickly. I was so happy to have those two worlds i always wanted, together, and pristine , but i separated them out of habit, and now both have been abolished and i am left with nothing.

But i lost you first. Except I didn't lose you, I gave you away.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to feel at home, because you still are my home. I want to fix this. It's exploding in my chest.