sometimes i wonder if you ever miss anyone.
if you have ever had one single thought about someone else while we have been in a relationship.
i wonder if there has been that one person you felt bad about that one conversation because you knew you were being flirtatious, and you know that's what they wanted.
sometimes i wonder these things, but not enough anymore for it to be a problem.
im sitting in your room by myself, wondering these things, and i feel so inclined to snoop.
at the beginning of our relationship, i know i probably would of, i am ashamed to say.
i am proud now to say, that i would never do that. the first thing i did was sign you off myspace (ok so that was to check mine, but i could never invade privacy like that anyway), and now i am sitting reading like a good girl and not giving the journals you keep in your drawer a second thought.
i am proud to say that i love you, and i trust you, and the past does not matter, and just for the sake of it, i opened the draw just so i could shut it hard and know that i am perfectly ok not even touching them. I am proud to know that i have overcome all of those jealous curious feelings, and am 100% content knowing the things you decide to tell me.
i do not know if this will make you mad, that these thoughts even apear, or if it will bring you comfort at how quickly i shut them out. I did not even have to try to forget about them, i just did it, because they are silly now to the point where i laugh at my wandering mind like a child's imagination. I love you, and that is what matters. Let the tag on the sunflowers be that constant reminder (:
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