i gotta have faith in you

because the moment i lose that,
is the moment i lose faith in everything.

i trust you, and sometimes i am scared [about what will happen when i am gone].
i worry about decisions and the ones i cannot and will not make [for you].

everything will always be ok, i know that.
i just worry [about you].

[When you had that little realization, you told me everything i needed to hear to explode the pit in my stomach into a thousand disintegrating pieces. You have been doing so good post then. I don't know if it has anything to do with one another. Art kicks and this broken down brick wall between us. i would collapse if that wall was resurrected.

i would collapse.

i don't necessarily mean the action in itself. I hope you know what i mean. If your mind changes, or wavers from the point it was the last time we talked, i need to know. it will not be a bad thing, i just need to know.]

i am so tired and worn out.
i am sick of waiting.

i want the resolution.


in our story that is.
i have never so anxiously awaited a predictable ending (: